I recently wrote a poem/song that is titled "Between God and Me" and it's about the inner struggle that I have dealt with as long as I can remember. The basic struggle is between what I want to do (my flesh) and what God wants me to do (God's spirit). We all struggle with it even if we aren't completely aware of what's going on. The words of my work are:
Between God and Me
Now that I have gray hair on my head,
I realize that the life I have led,
Wasn't the best I could have had.
I should have followed what Jesus said.
I grew up knowing wrong from right.
For some reason I couldn't quite,
Let go of the steering wheel.
In control I had to feel.
On my own I've done alright,
But inside of me it's been a fight,
Between God and me.
In the end, his way will be.
True peace and joy will never come,
Until I return to where I'm from.
The place I have tried to ignore.
The place I long for more and more.
The place of safety in His hands.
Nothing on earth should ever stand,
Between God and me.
I know that's how it's supposed to be.
Copyright 2008 Ginny Cruz
My experience has been that true peace, joy, and purpose have not come until I was lined up with God's will for me. My flesh has always sent me off in the wrong direction and it always will. "What job do I want?" "What should I do with my money?" "What should I do with my time?" The questions should be "What job does God want me to have?" "What does God want me to do with my money?" "What does God want me to do with the time he has given me?" Important differences.
So if you wondering why you're not really happy in your life maybe you're not only asking the wrong questions but you're losing the war between God and yourself.
Have a blessed day!
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